However then I checked my LJ again and was reminded of how many people are behind me and the support I've received from friends. So I tried replacing "please don't make go" with "your friends rock!"
I also remembered that it is part of my spiritual philosophy that whatever you run from you actually make stronger (by giving it so much attention). So instead of thinking how much I want out of there I'm going to try today thinking "you can do this!" So my mantra for today:
You can do this - your friends rock! - you can do this - your friends rock! - you can do this - your friends rock! - you can do this - your friends rock! - your friends rock! - you can do this - your friends rock! - you can do this - your friends rock! - you can do this - your friends rock! - your friends rock! - you can do this - your friends rock! - you can do this - your friends rock! - you can do this - your friends rock!
And that, my freinds, is what the inside of my head looks like today.