February 11th, 2010

socks and cat

Not accustomed to risk

My life is so completely strange and upside down right now. I normally live an unbelievably stress free life. I have arranged it that way on purpose. Don't like drama. Don't like stress. Why not orchestrate your life in a responsible way so you don't have to deal with those things? That's my philosophy. But of course you can't grow without taking risks.

One decision down: surgery is scheduled (still need help with that by the way). Now I have to decide on a business risk. My health and my business are EVERYTHING to me. So you can imagine how stressful it is for me right now to risk both at the same time.

My life is, or at least has been, incredibly safe. Now I'm taking two huge leaps and wondering if I'm going to fly or crash. The last time I took a risk this big was leaving the safety of the 9 to 5 world to try and support myself doing something I love. Look how that turned out. :) Can lightening strike twice...errrr, or in this case three times?
Belly dancer headshop

Surgery filter

What the heck, let's set this puppy up now. Please check below if you want to be on my surgery filter. I'll be discussing my emotional state about it prior to the procedure (hello fear) as well as more pictures than you probably want to see. And knowing me I'll probably make a post right after surgery if I can get to the computer (or I'll ask who ever is caring for me to do it for me). So you can look forward to both pre-surgery jitters and post surgery pain med haze addled indiscernible attempts at updating.

Please check only if you want to be on my surgery filter

Yes, I want to know all about your surgery.
socks and cat

Trade off

There is a big downside and an upside to the recovery process after surgery. I will not be able to pole dance for two months. The company won't lose too much money from that because my other instructors will be taking over the private lessons and parties that I would otherwise teach. So the business will survive. However *I* personally will not be paid for any of those lessons and parties because I have to pay them for substituting for me. So my personal income will be cut by about $200 per week (occasionally more if there is a party that week). I'm looking at a huge personal loss of income that could go as high as $1,600 to $2,000 lost.

On the upside, probably ALL of my Friday nights, weekend days and Saturday nights will be available every week for two months. No pole parties or private lessons. I can actually go out and socialize EVERY weekend like a real human being. Granted I'll probably still stay home during some of that and work on marketing, website updating, catching up in the studio office etc. But social time I am not used to having will be a real possibility for TWO MONTHS!!! I hardly know what to do with it.