August 19th, 2009

Meushi animated


It makes me happy when Vader rolls over on his back so I'll pet his belly. Meushi was my kitty soulmate. But she was a bit finicky about how you touched her. She loved to snuggle up close and be pet. But she hated having her paws touched and wouldn't stand for it. And you couldn't pet her belly unless you worked your way around it and sort of squeezed in a few belly pets while she was relaxed. But you couldn't do it for long.

Vader is pretty unlimited when it comes to lovin's. You can pet his belly, his paws, anywhere. And he likes to be pet ALL the time. If you pet him while he's sleeping, even if it wakes him, he won't move. Because he loves it. You can roll him over to pet his belly. You can pat his butt like you're spanking him and he'll just stand there and enjoy it.

And of course he lets me pick him up and carry him around. It's so wonderful to have that kind of unlimited kitty love available 24/7. He definitely makes me content and happy.

Belly dancer headshop

Still being stalked

The pyramid collection, bastards that they are, continue to tempt me with banner ads and direct e-mails daily. Today they sent me all their newest items, including this gorgeous velvet cloak:

I would probably get it but I'm sure it's way too long. And I don't want to pay $100 for something and then have to pay another $30 to have it hemmed. Plus none of their tops comes in a size 4. So I know that will be too big for me.

The lace granny boots I ordered from them turned out to be much too wide in the calves for my tiny little legs. But I'm keeping them. I purchased a couple new pairs of thigh high black socks and I wear them scrunched down into the boots at calf level to fill them out.
Pole Kitten arching on pole

This is how it's supposed to feel!

I forgot how good this can feel. Today I had a practice session with a student and her friend that is an instructor at S Factor pole studio in Los Angeles. S Factor is the pioneer not in pole dancing, but in teaching everyday woman how to dance organically from their bodies and sensuality rather than just learn and memorize a bunch of pole and floor moves.

Having those two here in the studio just sort of opened up a safe space for me to let go of all the technicality and teaching I have to do and just tune into my body and see where it wants to go. I found myself making up moves I didn't even know I could do. I practiced an invert I have always had trouble with and just went right into it smoothly and easily (maybe because I wasn't thinking about it anymore).

And much to my surprise I actually found myself inverting 12 feet up on the pole! I have always been afraif of inverting that high up! But I was so in the moment and the energy and sensual feeling of the dance that I just didn't feel fear or think about anything. Even upside down 12 feet up, I still felt no fear. Although I did discover that I couldn't get down. When you invert at 6 feet up, you can slide down to the floor (while upside down) pretty easily. But for some reason I didn't know how to do that from 12 feet up, maybe because I had never inverted up there before.

By the end of the practice session I felt more alive and exhilarated and fulfilled than pole dancing has made me feel in a long time. This is how it is SUPPOSED to feel. This is how my students feel when they do it. I just haven't felt that way in ages because I'm too busy teaching to just relax and find myself in the movement again. I loved it.