October 28th, 2006

socks and cat

might have to stay home tonight

I'm deeply sad, because I may have to give up the one day I look forward to all year. Halloween is like my Christmas. I usually put together two or three different costumes every year and wear them to at least 3 different events or parties. This year I may have to give all that up. Some one booked a pole party with me this evening. And anyone who knows me also knows that I am completely wiped out after I work these parties. Both physically and mentally I am pretty much a zombie afterward. I'm incapable of doing anything social, I just need to collapse and veg. And I've tried desperately to get ready and go out after a pole party, it's never worked. And as much as I would like to turn down the party that booked today, would anyone reasonably turn down the opportunity to make enough in just 2 hours to pay for more than half their rent?

I could give it a try and be ready to go by 10pm tonight. But I don't have my hopes up. I've even finished the adorable goth fairy costume I've been planning. I just got this butterfly below so that I can take off the wings and use these wings as my fairy wings! They're all velvet and sparkly!!

fairy wings


I'll be so sad if I don't make it to this party tonight in my fun little fairy costume. But I guess these are just the sacrifices you have to make to have your own business. And on the bright side, there are benefits to weigh. I mean I don't have a boss, so I don't have mean or stupid boss to gripe about like so many folks do. I don't have any co-workers that bug me, and I read posts all the time from folks who hate their co-workers. I don't have to get up every morning to go to work, instead I sleep in until about 10am pretty much every day of the week. And I'm in control of how much money I make, instead of having some company decide how much to pay me. I have to keep these things in mind tonight as look at the possibility of missing my favorite holiday ever.