July 6th, 2004

socks and cat

Let it rain! Err.....I mean sprinkle.

God I love this day! This is my favorite kind of weather. If I had wanted sunshine 5 days a week I would have stayed in California. On hot sunny days I have to keep my blinds closed to stay cool. Today I can open them up and enjoy the beautiful view from my bedroom window. I love that I get to stay home today and just toodle about and catch up on e-mail and clean my room and take care of things that need attention. I don't want the sun to set (even if I can't see it behind the fog) because this day is so beautiful.
socks and cat

It's not just 8 hours a day...it's your life.

You know I'd like to think that the improvement in my mood and outlook on life has a lot to do with the beautiful weather, having 4 days in a row off, fun clubbing at the Vogue or the extra time I've spent recently talking one on one with my friends. But I think a huge part of it is also due to that job I worked last week.

Working at a job that was constantly challenging, working a job where people actually need not just a warm body to fill it but my unique set of skills and gifts, working at a job where I actually made people feel better, helped people who were scared, crying or anxious, working at a job that most people wouldn't touch with a ten foot pole, working at a job where I was appreciated...changed my outlook on more than just employment. It made a huge difference in my life in just a few days.

I'm realizing that having a job you like, that challenges and that you enjoy does not just make 8 hours of your day more pleasant. It completely changes who you are; your attitude toward life and the people around you, and how you feel about yourself. If you have any doubt about this just think about the people you know who are miserable at their jobs. Now ask yourself, exactly how happy are they about the rest of their lives? Chances are that the misery of their work probably effects their mood and outlook and self esteem even when they aren't in the work place. The opposite is true when you have a job that you love and that utilizes your unique skill set in a challenging way. I mean I think I always knew that. And it's not like this is the first time that I've ever had a job I loved. Even before I was a dancer I once had a job that employed me both as a writer and a performer and I loved every minute of it. I guess I just needed another reminder of how profoundly our work can either drag down or greatly enhance our lives.

Wow. Just...wow.