August 27th, 2003

socks and cat

Shall we play a game?

My life is overrun by clutter and crap. So I've devised a game called "Keep It or Kill It." Here's how it would work:

I'll post some object or thing I'm having trouble letting go of. I'll probably say what it means to me and why I don't want to let it go. You can post in reply "keep it" or you can post "kill it." An explanation of why (like "you'll never use that thing!") is helpful but not required.

This would be a HUGE help to me. Because truly I'm having trouble with this and I feel chained to and trapped by all the things I own. So I'm reaching out to my LJ community for help.

How many people would be willing to play? If I get enough replies, the game will commence! If not, I'll get my revenge by posting lame quizzes and lamenting about how I will never find a partner because there's so much material crap in my life that there's no room for them!!!

CLUTTER HELL:

clutter
  • Current Music
    Is This Love - Whitesnake
socks and cat

What I'm waiting to feel before I say "yes"

Okay, the "Keep It or Kill It" game doesn't start yet. Probably not until I start unpacking. And before I can do that, I have to clean the heck out of both my old room clean the blinds and windows (mold is growing there - ick!) in my new room. One thing at a time!

On to more exciting news. My roommate shivacat and her sweetie stepchyld are engaged! She is no longer using her LiveJournal account. So if you know her, and you want details, you'll have to e-mail or call her.

Seems to be catching, this engagement thing. My ex-boyfriend from way back just e-mailed me to let me know he is engaged. It's about damn time! He and his girlfriend have been living together for somewhere between 8 to 10 years. I just assumed they didn't ever want to make it official. But it is so. Yeah!

A former co-worker of mine is also engaged. Wow.

I can't even imagine liking some one so much that you want to spend every day with them for the next 50 to 60 years. Jeez that's a LONG time!!!! To try and understand it, I often copy from people's journals descriptions of what it's like to feel that way. Here's one I found today. This must be what it feels like. I'm posting it as a reminder to myself of what it should feel like before I say "yes".

Her description...

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I love him so very dearly! He makes me laugh! I love it when he makes me laugh and we make each other laugh. He makes me smile and feel all warm inside. He makes me feel that when I am under so much stress that really everything will be okay and that I will make it through. I think he is so incredibly sexy! He is handsome beyond all belief! The boy truly does make me weak in the knees! He is amazing in bed! He makes the world seem like a better place. He supports me in whatever I choose to do and leaves me to do what I must when I must. He will run little errands with me and do it happily and I do the same for him. We have so many of the same interests. Can I just say that it is everything about him that I so truly adore!

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So there it is, her description. And I realize my pickyness has caused me a very long period of singlehood. But please don't let me forget to ever settle for less than what she just described.

Edited to add: I just looked online to see what a Gothic wedding would look like. I found the MOST beautiful wedding ever! Check it out HERE (click on different icons for different aspects/pictures from the wedding).

And her most amazing wedding dress here.

And the cemetery wedding photos here.
  • Current Music
    Some mushy-sweet Air Supply song
socks and cat

Domesticated kitten

I have been cleaning and scrubbing for hours. And that's just my ex roommates bathroom! I haven't even touched the one in my old room yet. She gave it a quick cleaning before she left but it still had mold galore everywhere. The ceiling fan had at least 5 to 10 years worth of nasty crap in it (it clearly was never cleaned even before we moved here). Took it apart and cleaned and vacuumed it. There was still cat litter under the cabinet. I got down on my hands and knees and vacuumed every centimeter of it. Sprayed bleach inside too. I also cleaned the inside of all the built-in drawers and cabinets.

I don't mind cleaning her bathroom because, God bless her, she used her employee discount to get my dance studio section mirrors at cost. AND she delivered them to my room. How cool is THAT!? But still, I had no idea how long it would take to clean the bathroom and cabinets and floors. On to mine now. Then I get to scrub the blinds in both rooms. Then tackle the mold growing around the windows...in both room. And be in bed in an hour. Yeah right.

And you thought my journal was all Vogue dancing and making out with hotties. Yeah. This is a side of Kitten I hope you never read about again. Cleaning is so NOT my forte.

My hands are all dried and cracked now from the bleach. I swear I wore gloves. I swear!!!
  • Current Music
    Dangerous - Depeche Mode
socks and cat

Can you guess what song these lyrics come from?

The lyrics I listened to while scrubbing the hell out of the bathrooms:

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Ah...
Tell me we can stay
Tell me we can stay oh please...
They are the words to say
The only words I can believe...
Hold me in your arms
For just another day
I promise this one will go slow
Ohhh...
We have the right you know
We have the right you know
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I like the sound of those words. We have the right. We have the right. Those words move me.

This is how I keep my sanity during hours and hours of cleaning. I keep telling myself, this is for my beloved. No one I love or care about is going to be welcomed into a dirty bathroom. This is for my beloved.

And then I sing the lyrics along with the tape as I scrub...

I promise this one will go slow.
We have the right you know.
We have the right you know.