June 22nd, 2003

socks and cat

Back....ouch, ouch, ouch -- Neck....ow, ow, ow...

Life of a true performer I suppose. In the cage last night, and now off to rehearsal this morning. My body is telling me it was a rough night and it would like to stay home and rest now please. Umm....damn...sorry. No can do.

After rehearsal I would like to go to the evening service at Center For Spiritual Living but it's not likely to happen. The actors are talking about getting together after rehearsal for food or drinks. To bond, I guess. Plus I still need to pour through the paper for job listings, do a load of laundry, send out resumes, make my weekly unemployment claim (I keep it active because I never know when this temp job will end), and I would very much like to catch up on my friends' LiveJournal entries, which I can't do at the moment because I'm off to rehearsal now. And this all needs to be done before I put my body to bed by 11:00pm

Lower back hurts, along with some minor neck pain. Anyone who knows me well, knows that I am a firm believer in the fact that our consciousness and beliefs shape our reality. Well I've realized that I'm absorbing and believing everything my massage practitioner tells me about my body...that due to my car accident injuries my muscles will strain and hurt easily after 3 hours of go-go dancing. I'm done with that reality. I'm done worrying while I'm in the cage that I might be doing some permanent damage to myself. That reality doesn't serve me. I'm taking care of the muscles. I stretch afterward, I go home and take a hot shower and stretch again, I even stretch more in the morning. I'm going to do all the right things. But my reality is no longer one in which I am frail and hurt easily. I'm young and my body knows how to heal from an accident. End of story. Off to rehearsal now.

Exotic Dancer
You're Exotic Dancer Barbie. You have some moves,
and will do anything for a few bucks. Take

off girl, but keep it PG-13 please.

If You Were A Barbie, Which Messed Up Version Would You Be?

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  • Current Music
    Khia - My Neck My Back (PG-13 version)
socks and cat

Kung Fu, belly dancing and a jealous mistress

Sometimes life is made easier when it pushes you to do something. I have been trying to make a decision. When this show is over I'll have two months before the fall quarter starts. Two months to concentrate on my body and gift it with either:

1. Belly dancing lessons - I've taken two beginning classes and want to take another once more before moving on to the intermediate class.


2. Kung Fu - I have several reasons for this. Mostly I need the discipline. And it's beautiful. It has a spiritual aspect. And quite frankly I'm a 5'2" 105 pound helpless girl that's weak as a kitten and spends FAR too many nights walking alone to her car (from clubs) at 2:00 in the morning. I'd feel safer doing so if I knew how to kick some ass!!!

Obviously these are both art forms that would have to be pursued beyond my two month break. But whichever one I start this summer will get me started on what could possibly be a lifetime love. So here I've been pondering and wondering which one to do and even posted on the SeaGoth Board asking for Kung Fu school recommendations. Then something else came up. The 3rd Annual Center For Spiritual Living Art & Talent Gala.

What makes this "talent show" (if you can call it that) such a huge deal is the size of the audience. That's right, if you're an artist, size matters! Over 400 people attended last year. I choreographed a dance routine that shivacat and I performed...in front of 400 people!!! For weeks afterward people would spot me after service and come up to me and tell me how much they enjoyed our dancing.

Auditions are in two weeks and I was thinking there was no way in hell I could choreograph a dance routine in time for it. Then I came home from rehearsal today and started to play Das Rad des Schicksals from the new E Nomine CD and that's when it hit me. This song makes me feel good. This song excites me. This song can make me dance even if I don't want to. It's been courting me and making me it's bitch since the the first time I played it. I can deny it no longer. I will indeed dance to it...IN FRONT OF 400 PEOPLE at the CSL Art & Talent Gala on August 1st.

Belly Dancer

So much for Kung Fu and Belly Dancing. I will be spending my evenings and weekends choregraphing and rehearsing this dance routine. Just 5 more days and my acting class is over (our performance is this Thursday). Dance is a jealous mistress, she's calling me back!
  • Current Music
    Om Shanti - Madonna