Girl who dances in a cage (cagekitten) wrote,
Girl who dances in a cage

My attempt to be "giving"

I did something Friday night I can't believe I did. I think it has something to do with this quote that I have on my wall:

"We make a living by what we get. We make a life by what we give." ~Winston Churchill

I have made an effort this year to be more giving. Because I have had to fend for myself all my life (I had a roof over my head as a child but no responsible parents around to make sure I was cared for or had enough to eat) as a result I am a pretty self centered person. Taking care of myself has always been necessary and has always had to come first. So I'm embarking on this adventure of making sacrifices to give to others.

So Friday night's party was supposed to start at 7:30pm. They called me around 7:20pm to tell me they were just leaving to head to my studio so they would be late. To make matters worse, there was an accident/back up on the bridge because some one had actually driven off the bridge (or so this party told me). So they arrived an hour late.

They are still required to pay full price, late or not. But the problem was their party of 10 had dwindled and only 5 girls showed up. So basically since they split the price 5 ways instead of 10 ways, they had to pay double what they were expecting. Only they somehow misunderstood the pricing and thought they would only have to pay $35 each even with only 5 girls. Imagine their shock and dismay when I had to break it to them that the price on the website still stands and they had to pay full price even with half as many girls and with only an hour left for what was supposed to be a 2-hour party.

I don't know if it was the looks of disappointment on their faces or what. But I felt bad or I felt generous or something and on the spot I offered them $50 off their party. They accepted the compromise and I took the $50 loss even though I was in no way responsible for them leaving late for their own party or them having half their party drop out.

The irony is, I had cut the party before them on Thursday night a $50 break as well. So I'm up to a $100 loss this week for the sake of being generous. I'm not quite sure what to make of this. I should probably feel bad for losing $100 this week. Or I should probably feel good for being so generous to clients. But I feel neither. Maybe I need some more practice at this whole giving thing? At what point does it start feeling good? Or is it supposed to?

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