Girl who dances in a cage (cagekitten) wrote,
Girl who dances in a cage

2008/2009 reflections

Folks are posting these really cool end of the year summaries or wrap ups of each month of 2008. I really wish I could do that, but I just don't remember much of 2008. I remember the cruise to Alaska, since that was my life long dream come true. And I remember the move to the new home and the new dance studio, because that was so stressful. But the rest...well...can anyone tell me what I did this year?

I had time to kill last week while I was a passenger in a car driving from Bakersfield to Fresno. I used that time to delete all the "sent" text messages in my cell phone. But I did so one at a time so that I could see them before I did. I was genuinely shocked and saddened by the number of text messages that I sent that were along the lines of...

"Thanks for the invite, can't go, gotta work"


"Teaching tonight, wish I could go"


"I'm teaching a pole party tonight, maybe next time?"


"I'm teaching until 11pm, it would be midnight by the time I got there"

You get the idea. Folks are kind enough to text me invites to join them on last minute excursions and adventures and I'm never available last minute because I'm always booked with parties and classes. I'm realizing how much fun I missed out on in 2008, the price of success I suppose. I would like things to be different in 2009 of course and I'm debating how many of my parties I want to turn over to other instructors during the wedding season this year. It's not a just a social decision, it's a financial one. Do I want to drop my income by $1000 to $5000 (a reasonable estimate of what the instructor's cut of the parties might total by the end of the year) this year in order to have more fun and be more social? Or do I want to teach as many pole parties on my own as I can, so I can have that money and not take a big drop in income. No one should have to make that choice.

I think this year I will try to do an end of the month summary every month. That will make my end of 2009 summary much easier.

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