The guns themselves are still too much of a challenge for me to be considered anything more than a novice (in spite of spending 16 hours getting my NRA gun safety certification). As it is, I have to stick with revolvers rather than semiautomatics because misfires and hangfires scare the heck out of me. I mean not only does it freak me out that you can pull the trigger and nothing happens, but then you're responsible for digging out the jammed bullet without blowing your own head off in the process. No thank you. Revolvers for me please.
Also having grown up in home where violence, physical abuse and the fear of both were an everyday normal occurrence, I have an overly developed obsession with self protection. My learning disabilities have made martial arts very challenging, and I've already forgotten most of what I learned in Kung Fu. Guns are my second choice. Naturally I feel safer with one around. And I'm so very lucky to live in a state that lets me carry one in my purse (as long as I have a permit to do so). When I lived in California, you couldn't get a permit to carry. So while I'm not thrilled with guns (not at all in fact), I really enjoy shooting and I consider it comforting and safe (since I live in a home in which there are never any children present) to have one around .